February 15, 2013

  • the month of february

    has always been a poopie sort of month for me. 

     

    One of my favorite "activities" to do on Xanga that I made up is to browse all of my past entries for every single year on whatever date the present day is. So today, I browsed back from 2012, 2011, 2010 -- and so on and so forth. Until 2005, since that is my last February entry if I go back in time. I'm always amazed by how different life is now then what it was just years ago... even just last year.

     

    So as I was going back to all the Februarys I've written about in the past years, I noticed an obvious trend -- I would always, ALWAYS talk about how stupid solo and ensemble was. Or how stupid February was in general. I'd complain about how busy I was, or how unloved I felt during Valentine's day, etc etc. February was never a good month for me... lol.

     

    Although I'm still stressed and busy as I was before, it's different. I don't know how to explain it, but it just is. I'm a lot happier and I'm getting a lot better at staying positive and not giving up so easily. I was always so miserable back then especially knowing how much work I had ahead of me. 

     

    And what's funny, I was offered to be an accompanist for solo and ensemble for middle school and high school students here in Chicago. I would've taken the offer knowing how simple the music would be for me to sightread and considering how much I would earn for just one day of accompanying -- but I would be in New York at the time. It would've been really nostalgic, since I've been accompanying kids for solo and ensemble since I was in 8th grade. 

     

    Sometimes it's nice to look back on life and see what you did and what you accomplished... and then to compare it to your current life, which is so much more awesome and better. 

     

    And speaking of something awesome -- I'll be heading off to New York tomorrow. YAY

     

     

    Here's to a positive entry about February!!

    :]